Life is but a dream

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its 2010 now and it also means A levels is drawing closssserrrrrrr!!!! i m so so so so so so so so so SOOOO not excited about it =P ok whatever that piece of information is so like everyone knows (or feels, unless you are some no lifer or seriously just an exam freak). My point is i just feel like Os is like so yesterday but omg its like As now. Singapore schooling environment is just so compact. Its like they want to squeeze us dry when we are still fresh and young. Cmon even PRIMARY one kids need to fight just to get a spot in schools. (maybe their parents but well you get me, if your clever enough that is)

Ok so hols is drawing to an end. Either gratefully or horribly i am soon getting back on regular sleeping pattern and flipping lecture notes soon. But there is still this 2 pieces of paper containing my hol hw which i have yet to touch. Yea 2 pieces sounds litttle but well remember. i am in an arts course so that = 2 sentences can jolly well meant i have to write 1-2 pages long of answers PER qns so basically i am screwed. BIG TIME. ANW these homework, seriously does the school expect us to do them like directly start of hols? Of course not so whats the big f*** deal over them? Recap is seriously an overused and overrated excuse cause i am pretty sure 90% of us will NOT look at our notes and will just forget concepts or shit that is required to even read and comprehend the 2 sentences. And yes i fall in that 90 not 10 percent =)

Ok so i have one more week before P.J.C open classes so should i do the chores or leave it and enjoy my last bit of cheese? Oh well i am pretty sure how it is gonna end.

P.S: moving back to jurong very soon. drop by if you have time. =)

I truly do not understand do you even realise or remember what you spoke to me. What you promised me. Sometimes i think you are just entertaining me. Perhaps indeed you are as you almost, always, fail to remember what i say or even sought to understand me. i said this alot of times. Maybe this will be the last but i seriously hate the way all must either agree with you. No is normally not an option. i do know you care for me. but think, at my age i detest such restrictions. Any meagre thing i do you always want to know why or what. Some empty promises i still remember or even perhaps bear a grudge towards you is how i gave up something, how i tried to acheived something, how i sought to attain the requirements you wanted, you seemed to forget now and whenever i try to raise it you always ignore. Yes i know that thing is not a must to give up. But i do understand your predicament and thus gave it up. Maybe i am materialistic, i admit i do care how i look how i act and how to i appear to others. in fact i detest myself sometimes as to why am i like this or even the fact i even existed. i sometimes do seriously just hope this world, this world only have me and me alone. i have long lost faith in any thing. yes even towards spiritual beliefs. Just that i never wanted or even bothered to say since you wouldnt care and wouldnt want to know. Naturally i adopted this ‘dont care, dont know’ attitude from you and admit it. you see yourself in me.

from now onwards or rather long ago i just hope stop impeding people when you think your helping them.

you should understand.

well merry xmas to all as we know its 25th of december today and its the day i would say most people look forward to cause presents will be abound and friends will be around… or something like that. ok so my xmas was pretty not so xmas since i went on a primary school (yes primary) gathering where i literally spent the most of early xmas hours (12am onwards mind you ) watching movies and which none got to do with xmas. Seriously why must TVs keep on showing the same old or those “happily ever after” or “help santa” movies like every year on xmas eve/xmas? cmon, people watched these shows before maybe in their childhood and trust me, people belive more in gift wrapped presents imprinted with shopping mall names like Metro then like santa claus bringing presents and put in your stockings (or socks, whatever it is) Well i guess its all for making xmas seems like xmas.

Ok so i am not those anti xmas people in case you do think so just that i have grew bored of such repetitive xmas antics from malls and media alike and trust me they will never stop so long xmas remain a money churning event for them. But well the “spirit of giving”! isnt it? maybe because i am raised in a family that do not celebrate xmas much less say going out for a special dinner for it. (In those younger days, i would only see xmas as a opportuinity to get some things which i belive many do)

=)

before i start typing away like a crazy typewriter i have to say its been quite a very very long time since my last post and pardon me for those caps letter and wide spacing blog post or some might say more of an eye catching ad and i have to admit it certainly does not shows well on my blog. it’s more of a smear now. oh well.

well its 24th of december now and thus xmas eve but i have to admit i barely feel any xmas spirit in my heart now except when i did cip in metro during december’s starting days which was located at the paragon right in the heart of orchard of all those glamourous lightings which i always thought to myself, those money could be much well better spent like buying ipods and other materialistic need. cmon! you see people using back the old decorations when the next xmas arrives? i do not think so. i really need to dig into my itunes library to seek out any xmas songs (not jingle or santa claus is coming to bla bla whatever shitz) to let me immerse myself in xmas mood like what everyone is pretty much doing now.

whenever xmas comes to mind = school is starting soon. (one or two weeks time in fact) and i will have to face that one bitch of an A levels and those “who tend to be more inclined to others then you” kind of teachers again plus one hell shit load of tests and questions, stop killing trees man! Oh and there is this very i would say wonderful group of people who i will have to face for one more year and oh i am Sooooo looking forward to it (seriously!) in case what you may be wondering what i had been doing for the past nearly 2 mths hols (or 1 i cant count, hols make my mind go one a “it is always the holidays” kind of thinking) and i have been nearly 24/7 in front of my beloved mac, god i think pimples are infesting across my face at an unprecedented rate. And oh i managed to have one or two mahjogn sessions but argh one could never complain of having too much mahjong or fun in my dictionary =)

and oh i certainly did not tell everyone but been expecting everyone to know is that my house is currently not under suitable living condition and had temporarily (*temporarily* guys and girls, stop asking me is it permanent) moved to CCK which is coincidentally near my school but who the hell go to school in december (not me for sure) so that benefit is like nullified. Dont worry, i moving back at January so you people still can contact me or find me if you want.

oh well, this is sure a long post and pardon me for doing so since i had totally nothing to do now (or rather no mood to do so) and after blog hopping i had this spur to just type whatever came to mind and still have loads to type (or say) but some are so trivial that if it appears here i might seem as overtly detailed or jus utterly no life. on a side note, i do not mind a late xmas gift at march where one presents me with the english version of FFXIII which i been waiting for it since my jc life (1 year *winks) since the spirit of giving is not just limited to 25th December as many think or act so. haiz people *sighs

PS: Do chat with me on msn especially these few days before 2010 kicks in. i am utterly bored yet not willing to sleep. come on i am sure people who read this have far more activities then me in dec. so fill me in abit here and there =)

and the post is 651 words. yup i bothered to look at the word counter

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Some one please jio me Mahjong or some outing pls.

though WoW is helping me tide over =)

but MAHJONG!

ugh.

Got back results slips today, well pretty much expected de liao but still was abit nervous =)

Got promoted though, but now need to mug for A levels where 3 As are apparently COMMON and i do not even have one now -.-

Met a old friend today while on my way home, primary school de, thought has lost all contact when i lost my phone but i guess not eh? =)

Installed WoW and playing it right now. I must say its quite gd till now and expecting it to become even better, i mean its much better then maple -.-”

Well, one month of hols coming up, hopefully time pass slower, i dread the arrival of A levels! (Who doesn’t)

MJ tmr. loving it~

cya.

its time you stop bothering me.

Been quite some time after promos since i blogged (1-2 weeks?) and the euphoric feeling of me surviving through promos is fading away as now people keep saying things like “hope i will not get retain etc etc” and you know, it affects me too so been anticipating tuesday with both high expectations yet also wish that it does not arrive soon, contradicting eh? Oh well i suppose most people out there feel the same

On a lighter note, IHG was a blast and my house manage to win the overall champs with the “sport” i partcipating getting first, ok its dota lol but then it was fun, a break from the gloomy onset of post promos actitvities which i practically did not go for 2 out of the 5 days i am suppose to. I just really miss secondary school, after exams just forget about everything and voila done, no need to care about what CL and PW which is really draining me (the latter) and having to fret over OP and did an IMPROMPTU OP on thursday itself. z talk about fun in post exam (or promos)

I am damn bored now. All my anime had finished and my songs are getting stale. Haiz, this got to be one of the worst post exam feeling i am ever going to have. Kinda regret not going sydney though, especially after looking at the swanky new T3 (ok not swanky new but nice) and the fact i maybe taking an A380 there. But then i rather save the money and decorate my new room with TV and other amenities

Well, hopefully i get promoted and score an A for PW and CL, then i will not have to go through promos again but A levels lol wow i am so looking forward to it, ha you know i am joking.

P J C  2 0 0 9

J 1  P R O M O S

A R E  O V E R ! ! !

Y E A ! ! !

now thinking what to do and no i do not want to go back into PW mood =/